Re: deep breath

astri wrote:
> On Sun, 12 Oct 2008, Cure wrote:
>> astri wrote:
>>> On Sat, 11 Oct 2008, confused wrote:
>>>
>>>> k. lets try again
>>>
>>> ok
>>>
>>>> (feels selfish!)
>>>
>>> of course
>>> (and scary)
>>> (don't look at *me*!)
>>>
>>>> and if we talk, think we will feel but we are trying not to feel.
>>>> not sure that's working anyway and we can't get it off of us and we
>>>> don't even know why we are freaking out. besides, we can't be
>>>> freaking out because we aren't feeling.
>>>
>>> you've really managed to get yourself tied up there.
>>>
>>> when we get that way, we usually end up getting anxious about being
>>> anxious and spiral from there.
>>>
>>>> we can't remember anyway so there's nothing to freak out about
>>>> anyway. well, we don't know all the way. we deleted that post.
>>>
>>> something or someone got triggered
>>>
>>>> we are talking in circles. if we can make it go away we don't have
>>>> to talk. we used to be able to make it go away. we could chant
"not
>>>> real" and it would go away.
>>>
>>> sigh
>>>
>>> understand.
>>> we got to a point we couldn't make it go away, either.
>>>
>>> that was the point we actually started getting better, even tho we
>>> felt worse for a long time.
>>
>> ok, this is what t said. That you 'can't make it go away'. It seems
>> like it you work really hard at it, you could. Hell, it worked for
>> all these years.
>
> weren't you abusing drugs at that point and needing to go through
> rehab?
>
> -- astri
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think you are mixing me up with someone else.
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