Re: I wish I could say something

On Apr 8, 3:11 pm, "Cindy's Mom" <jehedgec...@qwest.net> wrote:
> On Apr 8, 1:49 pm, smudgedr...@gmail.com wrote:
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> > I have been reading all the posts and replies but I haven't been
> > replying lately.  I just don't know what to say.  I read about
> > everyone's loss(es)....everyone's personal tragedies, pain, and
> > suffering....and it just makes me sob.  It just breaks my heart that
> > anyone else has to experience the kind of grief that I am.  Every day
> > I wake up with the same sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and my
> > heart is just breaking, aching from the second I am conscious and
> > aware of anything.  As others have said, it doesn't seem real.  Did
> > this really happen or did I just imagine that it did?  It can't be
> > possible that I'm never going to see him again, I will never talk to
> > him again, have any possibility of a relationship ever again.  Any
> > dreams for the future are totally gone and wishing things were
> > different, aching that things COULD be different, just don't change
> > reality.  What has happened is FINAL.  I don't know what to say to all
> > of you who have posted recently, I am in so much pain myself and feel
> > that I have nothing valuable to contribute that might be helpful.  I
> > know I could come up with something supportive to say but my heart
> > just aches so much I can't bring myself to reply right now.  I thank
> > all of you for the kind support you have given, and for your messages
> > to me....I will be posting and replying as I can.  I belong to another
> > usenet group and I talk about my pain there, my depression, but it is
> > not the same as when I come here and others are experiencing the same
> > permanent, final loss that is ripping my heart out.  The pain is so
> > great it is really leaving me speechless. something that doesn't
> > happen to me very often.  I wish all of you well, and hope that
> > everyone is having a good Easter today, or just having a good day
> > period.  Take care....
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> > Rose
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> Rose..thank you for your words on this Easter day, the first for me
> without my daughter. It helps to knwo that others are going through
> the same type of emotions that I am. I can only pray for all of ys to
> have better days and to rmember our loved ones without as much grief
> and rawness as we now feel. Take care of yourself....Judy, Cindy's Mom- Hide quoted
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Hi rose,

Others are going through  pretty much the same things you're
describing. I first found out
about depression when I was 17 yrs old, I'm now 55 yrs old. I learned
about grief last summer
when my mom passed away. Its good just to talk about it or write about
it, you dont have to contribute
any answers or solutions to anything.  Not too many people know how
different things trigger
depression like stress and so on. So we are lucky to be already
depressed or prone to depression then add
on grief and like you I was not able to do anything for several
months. If I got out of bed that was alot. After 9
months Im still fighting it everyday.
So you are by no means alone in this. I too hope for better days
bob
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