[usdk22-3] Patrick Michael Sullivan, usenet "toughguy" writes, "I cannot face anything any more, it seems like. I just want outta here! I just want to run off!" - Message-ID: <255b6dda.0301272035.1344c0c3@posting.google.com>


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From: iluvmydogs@canada.com (Michael)
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Subject: Oh, God!!  I do not know what to do any more!
Date: 27 Jan 2003 20:35:34 -0800
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God!!!!!!!!  Going NUTS here!!!  Just nuts!!  I took the day off work
and I got smokes.  Stupid me, as I was doing so well.

I cannot face anything any more, it seems like.  I just want outta
here!  I just want to run off!  But to where and what fate would I
meet??????

I need to be more consistent!  I am having such a damn hard time
dealing with people!!  I am surrounded by crazies, it seems.  Everyone
is nuts!!!  There is no serenity in the outside world!!  Everyone is
fighting and playing head games with each other.  I just try and hide
out!!  God, i hate it all!!

I solated all day!!  I will get outta here, tomorrow.  I have to.  I
have to finish this bloody thing I started.

I have such an uncertain future.  I just don't need any more debt.  I
don't need any more responsibilties.  I cannot even depend on myself.
How will others depend on me????

Oh, shit, I feel awful, just awful............

Sorry.  I just don't know what else to say, what else to do?

I wonder why I am not using drugs and booze at this point?  Anyone
with my feelings would most likely in the bar or on the street scoring
drugs to kill the pain.   God must be watching over me to a certain
extent.  Sometimes, I really feel like getting a BIG WHACK of SMACK
and injecting it till I die!  God, that would feel so good.  Just to
be dead, have it all over with, FINALLY!!!!!

What the hell is wrong with me???  I just don't know!

Peace and love to you all!!!!!
--Michael



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